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Thom's art-o-biography tells of his courageous journey through the matricide of his mother, fame found and lost, mysticism and mental illness. As a closeted gay man while on "The Young and the Restless", he struggled with his integrity against the backdrop of a childhood dream. "Forgiving Troy" is a story of a family torn apart by extreme tragedy and then put back together through Thom's inherent compassion and his uncompromising search for answers. It proves to be an uplifting and inspiring story of forgiveness and transcendence. The emotional depth of the story is intensified throughout the book by Thom's paintings. Being likened to Rain Man, Dead Man Walking and A Beautiful Mind, Forgiving Troy is a phenomenal true-life story.
What People are Saying...

"The soap sensation who played Phillip Chancellor on The Young and the Restless has written a terrific, gut-punching memoir that chronicles his triumph over an unspeakable family tragedy...Chilling, hopeful, spiritual - you'll never read anything like it" Michael Logan, TV GUIDE

"Shakespearean in its tragic underpinnings, FORGIVING TROY fearlessly tackles a litany of societal ills that ostensibly seem insurmountable, yet the book reverberates with the clear ring of redemption. Author - artist - activist Thom Bierdz has dysfunction running through his veins, but just like a junkie in the process of hardcore rehabilitation, he wages a war against his demons." Michael Kearns, IN MAGAZINE

"The must-read memoir of 2008! An epic, raw and overwhelming story of tragedy, chaos, humanity, and ultimately compassion. A rare book that dives, unapologetically and uncensored, into the workings of an American family torn apart by matricide and mental illness. Highly recommended!" Jeffrey Keen, USABOOKNEWS.COM

"A true-life tale of love and loss, terror and triumph that will take your breath away - and play on every single emotion you own." Bill Harris, E! ENTERTAINMENT TV, NATIONAL ENQUIRER

"As a writer, I am amazed at how many people come to me and say their story is interesting enough for a memoir...On the other hand, Thom Bierdz's book had to be written. His gripping story of family, murder, insanity, and forgiveness leaps off the pages...horrifying...inspiring...riveting." Political activist David Mixner, author of A STRANGER AMONG FRIENDS

"A different kind of psychic message from a mom figures prominently in Thom Bierdz' inspirational memoir...this is fascinating, profoundly moving stuff...It is so worth your while!" M. Logan, SOAP OPERA DIGEST

"Very special...Thom became obsessed with delving into his mother's murder and his brother's mental illness, which resulted in a reconciliation with the sibling who ended their mother's life and produced the haunting and painfully honest memoir...that mixes Bierdz's writing with his paintings. I promise you, it's a really engrossing and deeply personal read." Greg Hernandez, DAILY NEWS.COM, FRONTIERS

"Bierdz has the courage to be truthful about his own erratic behavior in the aftermath of this terrible tragedy. But he came to recognize that we all have the power to control our destinies...Thom Bierdz, a proud gay man, is now one of Los Angeles' most successful and in-demand artists. His journey from darkness into the light is one of the year's most illuminating and inspirational reads...the sublime, haunting FORGIVING TROY will stay with you long after you finish reading it." David Alexander Nahmod, EXPRESSGAYNEWS.COM

"The reader is left with a feeling that even in the midst of the most tragic situations, hope abides and family triumphs. Being likened to A BEAUTIFUL MIND and RAINMAN, his story will both break your heart and heal your spirit." Nicholas Snow, NOTES FROM HOLLYWOOD

"It's been said that the greatest mark of the human spirit is its ability to overcome impossible personal tragedy, and no one exemplifies that statement more than artist Thom Bierdz." Joe Thompson, IN MAGAZINE

"This is a tale of fame found and lost, murder, mental illness, mysticism, emotional dysfunction and soap opera - both on and off screen." Olivier Bjorksater-Bleylock, DNA MAGAZINE

"Matricide! Suicide! Paranoid schizophrenia! Sound like elements of a juicy soap opera? Not to former The Young and the Restless hunk Thom Bierdz - those horrors are part of his true family story. And the actor is going public with them in his startling new autobiography..." Gil Kaan, NATIONAL ENQUIRER

"Millions of viewers fell in love with Thom Bierdz on The Young and the Restless unaware that his real life was more dramatic than any soap opera. This book proves he is not just another pretty face - but an artist of substance, power and talent."
DANIEL R. COLERIDGE
-- TVGUIDE.COM

"Thom's book is not as much about forgiveness as it is about the kind of strength and spiritual carpentry necessary to repair the disengaging structure of one American family."
LUCIAN K. TRUSCOTT,
-- AUTHOR OF DRESS GRAY

"A truly amazing and intriguing book.....you will want to call your family and tell them how much you love them......my glass will be half full for the rest of my life."
DANA CAPRINA
-- GAY CHICAGO MAGAZINE

"Beautiful, Expressive, and Original just like one of Bierdz's paintings! A moving testimonial to the power of the human spirit."
-- USABOOKNEWS.COM

"Grabs the reader and keeps them turning pages...you have a best seller."
DR. DANNE MONTAGUE-KING,
-- INTERNATIONAL AUTHOR AND LECTURER.

"It made me see Troy and the millions of souls like him in a gentle and forgiving way which I always thought it should be the way things are but could never articulate. It was just beautiful."
NICK SALAMONE
-- AUTHOR OF ALL SOULS DAY

"It reads so fast, but gives such great detail. One would think that story of this depth and dimension would be at least a thousand pages long."
NEAL LEVINE
-ASI ENTERTAINMENT